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Changes to the Weather February 15, 2006

Posted by Lee A Haynes in Creativity, Movies, Personal.

Bay Area weather is shifting. This last week an a half of great weather we’ve been having is moving through. I got caught yesterday without a jacket or sweater. By the time I headed home at 6:30 it was cool and windy. Not that I’m complaining. Complaining about more than a week of highs in the 70’s while the east coast gets hit by a blizzard is bad karma. The weather has been fantastic for my sunglass concession. Last week was one of the three best since we opened in July.

The rough part about living alone is the holidays. I know that is stating the obvious but my apartment never seems smaller than on those days.

I skipped writing yesterday. I neither posted here nor did my daily journal pages. Even today I had a hell of a time getting through them. I actively looked for ways to avoid writing. It was so bad I found myself hitting Blogger’s “Next Blog” in the middle of sentences. My attention span is nothing lately. Both Monday and Tuesday I started movies and just quit them halfway through. They were not bad movies. Just strange and the combination of WTF factor and my own lack of focus just led to me stopping right in the middle. These are the times that are made for TV. I’m so glad I don’t have cable right now. I know I would channel surf for hours when I get like this if I had cable available to me.

See. I didn’t even mention the names of the movies I didn’t finish. Where is my focus? Monday’s movie was truly one of the strangest ones I’ve ever seen. “The Happiness of the Katakuris” is really weird. Click the link, read the description, shake your head in disbelief. It did make me laugh out loud though. Several times. I don’t remember doing that all that much watching movies last year. Well except for old movies. Last night’s movie was “Happy Endings” I should have taken some notes. That might have saved that one for me. In the popular indy genre of “everybody sleeps with everybody else and sets up elaborate¬† layers of lies” this one may be king. Maybe tonight I’ll start over with my notebook open and some flow chart tools available.

So the question of the day is why do I avoid the page if writing almost always makes me feel better? “Three a day keeps the shrink away,” has long been my motto for daily journal pages. I’m calmer, clearer and happier when I write. So why will I do almost anything to avoid doing it?


The City as Avatar Itself January 27, 2006

Posted by Lee A Haynes in Creativity, Movies, Photography.

This guys photos are amazing, he creates an effect of an extremely accurate and super detailed models but they are real photos with an effect on them.

I’m reminded of a line in one of my favorite silly movies, “Joe Versus the Volcano“.

Upon seeing LA for the first time Joe is asked what he thinks.

“It looks fake. I like it”
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Braver Newer World January 1, 2006

Posted by Lee A Haynes in Books, Movies, Personal.
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This personal renaissance I’ve been trying to have has its roots in 2004. I had ended 2003 pretty damn depressed. My marriage was officially over, my new job wasn’t what I had in mind when I took it and my best friend and roomate had just moved out and wasn’t really talking to me anymore because his girlfriend couldn’t stand me. In March of 2004 I found myself living pretty much alone and in the mood for a Spring renewal. After years of seeking comfort in my favorite movies and books I made a vow to read 50 new books and watch 100 new movies that year. I also started writing my morning pages again. Three pages a day longhand preferably before doing anything else. The journal writing sputtered out after a couple of months. I did keep reading and watching movies and keeping up a list of both of them. I made both of those goals that year. My book list from 2004 is already in My Links.

Karen moved back into the house in the bedroom next to mine and I struggled with writing while sharing the space again. But I did not abandon my desire to keep this growth spurt going. In Spring of 2005 I was back feeling restless. In April I started journalling again. I discovered the technical ease of blogging and my first one was born. I published online my list of 10 things that I could do every week to make my life fuller.

Well I wasn’t quite there yet. A couple of factors got in the way. First off I forgot how remarkably thin skinned I am. When my 10 things comment recieved some “anonymous” (best man at my wedding John) criticized my 10 Things as being more boring than dirt I retreated and didn’t write again for a month. By that time other factors started to play as my company got bought out and everyone that I liked working for bolted or got fired. My old boss rescued me and by the end of the summer I had my first job in San Francisco. My 20 year old dream of fleeing the suburbs was coming together. At the end of October it did finally all come together when I moved into my first apartment on my own since the late eighties.

Here I’ve tried to get back into my better habits. I’ve been journalling religiously (though not usually about religion). I’ve written more since September (about 300 pages) than I did all last year. I’ve started this blog and I’ve tried to recreate my list of new books and movies for 2005. It looks like I didn’t do as well as the year before but still not bad. I read 24 new books and watched 75 new movies. I’ll get the lists up later in my links page.

Which brings us to 2006. If 2004 was the plan and 2005 was the set-up 2006 is the pay off. My Braver Newer World.

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